Thursday 30 June 2016

If one is concerned about his life's work, it means that he's concerned about the result, right?

But all we can do is to do one's best. Part of doing one's best is leaving the results to themselves, letting them go, not being concerned about them.

Sometimes it means a difficult decision, going against one's preferences (drinking a bitter tasting tea, folding a good hand in poker, moving to another place at high cost and high risk when we are oppressed), sometimes a compromise. There is more possibilities in life than the one we are attached to.

Saturday 25 June 2016

You once had a dream. You were entering an area of block of flats in some city. It was a new experience because You've never been there. So it felt like wonder, the new is amazing, it means amazement. The area wasn't particularly beautiful but it was mysterious cause you didn't know what was next. You kept walking slowly and at the crossroads, at the ground floor of one of the buildings you found a jewellery shop on the left. There were a couple of other shops too, then more blocks, trees, grass..
 If one is not VERY VERY attentive, buying a home somewhere for oneself and staying there with and idea it is 'mine', in one place, can be like crystallizing and losing that wonder, that observation full of mystery: what's next, who are these people living here, what are they like, what colors, sounds and smells will you encounter round the corner?
Was that maybe what Jesus meant when he said: Foxes have holes.. but the son of man does not have a place to lay his head?

Thursday 2 June 2016

Let's say I did something horrible 10 years ago, a year ago or yesterday, for example I ran over a child (the world is a crowded place and unfortunately mistakes happen technically).

It hunts me everyday. But the good news is the guilt has absolutely no sense (other than prevent such mistakes to happen again and be even more observant) because the fact is it was not 'me' who did it! I have nothing in common with 'Arek' from a year ago. In another words, there may be the memory but there is no 'me'.

It is not just a word trick to cheer someone up. It is a fact. There is nothing passing from moment to moment aside of the memory. We are completely new. We have the memory but it is not 'we' who are in it. It is a paradox.

It is very easy to get entangled in sorrow if one lives in thought (fragmentary perception) but the fact is there is nothing going from yesterday to today aside memory. And it doesn't have to be so. If memory does not pass, there is nothing that passes.

I suspect it is what is behind the 'repent and be forgiven' procedure in the church which is a misunderstanding and misinterpretation and mistranslation of Jesus' Metanoia.