DISTORTION

You're only making a mess by trying to put things straight. It's because "you" are just an imaginary invention of thought. Thought produces "you" by dividing/classifying reality into "you" (the subject) and "not you" (the objects), thereby inventing the fundamental horizontal conflict, the gap of time (from here to there), the distortion in perception.

Thought/memory can act rationally in the physical world (build a house, etc.) by dividing the reality into the subject and objects. However as it builds (in memory) an intricate imaginary me/ thinker/ ego/ controller it realizes that the me is burdened with vast and deep problems, like time (death), attachments, anxiety, pleasure, fear, sorrow, depression. Thought then erroneously/irrationally tries to act on the problems of the me as if the me was separate from thought. That frictional erroneous movement of thought obviously doesn't solve anything but it disperses energy to no avail and makes the problem even bigger.

The futility of this part of the META process must be thoroughly understood. There is no self help or self improvement, the evolution of the self. The self can only become silent and still which happens when it understands what happens and there is nothing rational for it to do.

 THE REALITY AND MEMORY

Unitary (Unfocused, Universal, Undivided) Perception (UP) is the realization that there is Universal energy operating in the brain. The energy is a reflection of the Universe. What sees is all there is.

Thought can describe what happens if it acts as a tool of the Universe. But the description, the memory of the fact and the perception of the Universal movement of energy in the brain cannot happen at the same time. There is either the perception of the fact, the reality, or thought, memory of it. The knowledge gathered by thought blocks the perception of reality.

Thought cannot function at the same time with the movement of the Unitary unfocused undivided energy because thought produces the division into the subject (the "me") and the object ("not me") - the horizontal conflict, which is a fundamental distortion of perception.

The perception of thought (the horizontal conflict) and the UP of Universal energy in the brain cannot function at the same time. Where there is the limited movement of thought with its horizontal conflict operating in the brain, the reality of the Universal unitary movement is blocked. The Universal movement is the Unknown, it's not correlated with knowledge.

The correct function of the brain is to reflect the constantly transforming reality. That function is realized by UP, not the mechanism of memory and its response, thought.

PLEASURE

A complete self denial, could that be wonderful? :)

If you want to indulge your self, think you need some regular or some special treat, deny it, negate all desires that rear their heads and see what happens.

Do not allow yourself to have any pleasure and observe what happens. Is it possible? Why do I need pleasure at all? Maybe constantly needing and planning pleasures means an unnecessary dispersion of energy to no avail at all?

How about being still and silent instead? No direction to go, no running back and forth in chaos. Just being watchful without any effort, without any purpose or goal.

 THE AGE OF GRIFT

Does it mean that I have a chip on my shoulder if I tell you I don't understand how 2+2=3?

Our so called governments invest in killer drones, electronic mines and submarines, stuff like that, instead of new homes when one has to audition to rent a room in a big city. That it doesn't make sense to me is an understatement. When 2+2=3 I simply don't get it.

No, kill me but I simply don't get it when all the suits on TV agree that using the program SAFE to fund the the arms race is actually making us all more safe.

Why are there countless football competitions all the time and no money for modern healthcare for everyone, I don't get it.

When Sam Altman and Elon Musk tell me that I need data centres in space and occupy Mars and are subsidized by the government with public money, I don't get it. I don't get it when some guy advertising his company tells me I need to manufacture quantum computers on the Moon.

 THE HORIZONTAL CONFLICT OF FEAR AND WASTE OF ENERGY

Living all days in the imaginary horizontal conflict produced by thought (the division of thought into the subject and the object) means living in fear. Thought has to plan for everything so that we don't lose too much of pleasures. Also thought has to plan for cancer and the like. Ultimately you have to prepare for the eventuality of your unfathomable end. So you have to save for your funeral too :)

So what is your boss hates you and wants to save on you? Or if the stock market crashes and your retirement pension goes puff in the bubble? Turns out it was all just printed toilet paper and electronic impulses somewhere nobody knows where. Oh, and don't you worry, the generals and ministers have spent your pension on the arms race and wars anyway :)

This is the content of the brain in the fragmentary perception of thought. Fear, sorrow, anger. Analysis, paralysis, planning. Some of it may be functional but most of it is just worrying and unnecessary dispersion of energy.

 THE VOID

A good writer wrote a great joke once. They take a guy in a rocket to the outer space and tell him: "Get out!" And he says: "Fine!", and he gets out. :) 

Void to void.

There exists an irrational form of thought process and it's essence is the perceptual distortion of reality, the horizontal conflict (the division of the thought process into the "subject" and "object"). 

But in reality what sees is all there is, what we are looking at is what looks! That is the undistorted (by thought) perception of reality.

There is only one undivided unitary movement of reality (the Universe). There is nothing that is separate, no "self". The self/the ego is an illusion produced by thought.

What are we clinging to then? What is there to be attached to? What is there to desire in the Void?

Do not try to avoid the Void, it's futile, impossible.

 I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING.

I don't know anything. If that is really so, that I don't know anything at all about anything, then what happens?

I don't know anything about anything, any definition, how anything happens or how it's possible. I don't know who I am, I don't have any goals, motives, preferences, choices, direction, no control, no effort, I don't know what I should or shouldn't do.

I don't know what to do at all. Then what happens? I can't do anything. I can't move. I stop. I'm in complete stillness and silence. That means watching, listening intently (the Universal energy working in the brain) without the observer in the observation, without the controller, the "me", which is all the knowledge.

Doing, pushing, exercising my will, involves time and the "me" (I do "it", subject -object). Purpose, goal, direction, definition..

Being happens all by itself. 

Just open your eyes and ears.