CONSCIOUSNESS AND DEATH

To you who lies in bed at night, thinking about something, e.g. dying, etc. :)

Some say you should divert your attention somewhere "else" like.. to escape the 

fear.

But I'd like to ask: who are you that says he/she is afraid and why do you feel 

you have to escape the fear?

Maybe you should investigate what death is and who you are.. Who is afraid of 

death? It's the imaginary product of the brain called the "I" that is afraid, or 

in sorrow and it is itself fear and sorrow.

So you cannot escape fear, you are it, you are just sweeping the problem under the 

rug, but it will rear its ugly head again and again, and you will try to fight it 

in vain.

What you can do is to understand the whole issue. The product of thought called 

"you" does not really exist. That is a fact. There is no consciousness per se. 

Consciousness is produced by thought.

So why is there fear? Because this imaginary product of though persists and 

produces its imaginary projections and attachments.

When the content of consciousness, all of the attachments and illusions disappear 

in silence, there is no problem.

Only the silence through everything goes unobstructed is a solution, the silence 

is understanding of the problem, not an escape.

For fear to disappear you have to die ("psychologically"), without any effort, choice, control or self-pity. And it happens all of itself in stillness and silence when you have understood that what is, which means you are not attached to anything, which means you are nothing.

 THE HUMAN CONDITION

There seem to be two distinct approaches to freedom from the "human condition".

1) Attempt it, try to find it, do something to reach it ("the other shore"). 

But then there will be "freedom"/"my will", which I want AND that what I don't want (not my will), which is.. that what is (fear, sorrow, anger). So isn't it a conflict? The illusion of the horizontal conflict produced by thought (subject-object)?

2) Why do "you" even have look for "freedom"? Who are you, the seeker? Aren't "you" the self, your will, so the fear, the problem itself? 

You are looking for freedom because you cling to something, aren't you? You are attached to something that is transient, something in the world that you would like to be fixed, and it makes up your "self", what you want and what you don't want is what your self is, it is what you are.. But the world is a constant transformation, so it's constantly sleeping through your fingers.. You know you're losing (everything you hold will and must be lost, and you know it). 

So you are afraid, or to put it more simply, YOU are FEAR, sorrow and anger, because you don't want to let go, you don't want, or you want, does not matter, it's the same. Therefore the world is testing you, you are petrified whenever there is some sort of crisis in "your life", you live in fear.

But unfortunately or fortunately you can't be attached to anything in the world that is constantly changing. This cannot be done. It's a fact. You can "try" but it's just an illusion produced by thought. It can work for a short while (maybe!), until the next crisis. But that what's real, the truth, is always at the back of your head.

So for those monks who seek freedom from fear, is there a different solution then to be indifferent? Let go of everything that you love ("my will"), give it up without any self-pity. And don't mind that what you hate happening ("the will of the Universe")?

Do not cling to anything, do not be attached to anything, do not choose anything, do not have preferences. Completely negate the imaginary movement forward produced by thought, that is called "time" or the "future". If possible, be silent and still.

Fortunately or unfortunately there is no other way, and if you don't let everything go, you will always live in fear.

If you bump off yourself it's ok, same when you go help children in Africa. Problem is that peeps are doing the same thing when they strive to become presidents to escape from yourself, go to fight in a jungle somewhere, bombing cities, killing millions of civilians. It's all the same, an escape because you cannot bear your self.

 WU WEI

Ruben Feldman Gonzalez: The Unknown means, among other things, to stop seeking experiences and sensations.

The superproduct of thought called the "I" is always in search for some more futile entertainment :) and as man is probably just a natural fool ;), it may take a lot of "soul searching" to find out that you just don't know. I cannot know. All trying to find is in vain to find nothing.

Freedom cannot be sought. Why? Because "you" are the process (the META Process of thought) that is the denial it it. So freedom is where you are not.
"I am the Universe" - when thought is saying this, it's not actually true. Who is really saying this? You, me, my self and I :) The Universe does not say it's Universe. It's a game of language, a game of hope, delusion, more entertainment.

"You" are the disturbance (the horizontal conflict). All you striving has to be understood both in the "material" world and in the so called "spiritual" world. Not wanting anything means understanding what wanting is.

If there is a definition of freedom in the brain (that has to be adhered to) or any purpose to strive to, it's not actually freedom. Any control, effort or choice is the illusive horizontal conflict produced by thought (subject - object), the source of all distortion of perception.

Striving to be somewhere else means to lose peace and freedom. If you try to control too much you may not even be able to sleep at night. Let it go. Don't try to interfere in the flow, it doesn't need you, it flows all by itself.

It does not matter if "you" have a problem with that what is or try to intervene in what is (in vain) or not. All that can ever be is what is.

 HOW TO REST FROM TOO MUCH KNOWLEDGE :)

“Let us not call defense a rearmament that increases tensions and insecurity, deprives investment in education and health, undermines trust in diplomacy, and enriches elites who care nothing for the common good.” 🎯
- The guy called "Pope".

To know anything is a more subtle or more crude disturbance of the brain, an imbalance, a burden.
To know something can be functional for work but we are frequently occupied with non-functional knowledge, unnecessary burden which often touches on the Thymic level of the META Process of thought (triggering emotions of fear, sorrow, anger).

How to not know one could ask.. How can I take some rest from all the circus? First of all one can temporarily suspend all the noise, cut off the contact with the media, TV, radio, music, books, language, chatter, the Internet..

Then one can suspend all DOING. In the state of silence and stillness all the disturbance caused by thought may naturally decrease as thought has to react to less stimuli, it doesn't need to DO anything.

Don't do anything. Don't go in any direction. Let everything go as it wants to, whatever happens, do not interfere, do not try to choose or control the flow, do not make any effort on any purpose.

Though in spite of that thought may keep returning and hypnotizing you, it's OK, don't worry about that either. Why should you be afraid of any memories coming back? Let everything go without fighting it, without trying to change it. You are nothing.

You will keep waking up from the hypnosis too (the second awakening after night sleep), do not choose this over that. Just be silent and still. Let everything come and go through you, for you are really nothing, simply pure emptiness.

 DON'T MIND

Not knowing anything (The Unknown) is pretty good! :)

But what may be even better ;) is not minding anything, not being bothered by anything, not having any preferences, not choosing anything, not going in any direction, not trying to control anything, making no effort, having no purpose, not exercising any will, not wanting anything at all (I want, I don't want).

Once there was a guy who was worried that he would have nothing to do anymore. "Man! All that time and nothing to do? How is it possible to take THAT predicament?" :) Sooo depreeessing, so saaad.. Unbearable. Boohoo.. :)

But really he must have been clearly a fool.. Well.. well! Nothing to do! How about THAT!? :) Thanks for everything! I don't have any complaints whatsoever. :)

Nothing do do
On a cold rainy day
The passing cars sound almost like the sea
Doves cry
Drills the rocks.

Thanks Basho.

 PUSHING WITH EFFORT

In the physical world "pushing it" may be sensible, sometimes we need to use force, of the muscles, persistence, build tools, machines to build a dam or a bridge, transform the "environment" ("me"/subject vs the "objects).

BUT in the psychological world (the "internal" world of the subject/ "me"/the "I") pushing it is absurd, because there is nothing to transform, as the "me" is a fictitious product of thought!

Today's "I" has nothing to do with yesterday's "I", there is no "I" continuing through time, from a moment ago till now, this mysterious entity is simply a product of thinking and it probably evolved a long time ago to perform action on the "outside" world, using the functional horizontal conflict, the illusion of the split between the subject and object, produced by thought, like "We have to store some food for "tomorrow".

Really that was IS is only and always the full undivided unitary flow of the Universe and that is our direct experience and perception (Unitary Perception), which thought denies by inventing the horizontal conflict, with the subject/the centre of experience/ the Self/the "I".

But thought cannot really deny that what is real. Only that what is unreal, the illusory products of thought like the Self can be negated. All thought can do is to TRY to negate the truth, again and again, with effort, purpose, control, choice, etc., imagining the "me" by producing the split of the horizontal conflict.

It's easiest to be free of the illusion (all illusions) in stillness and silence, without any purpose as then the horizontal conflict is not required to be produced by thought to perform any action (on purpose).

That means not doing anything at all, letting everything go, not worrying about anything, no wanting anything, not trying to control anything or make any choice. not knowing anything, not trying to be anything. Where you are, it is not. If you are not, it is here.

 TIME

What is time, not the time on the clock but the psychological time? Is it time when a memory from 10 years ago appears when w're walking in a forest awoke? No, then the memory is just in the flow of the whole energy, there is no problem, it comes and goes away very fast.

For time to appear there must be a purpose, so the horizontal conflict (what is vs "what should be"/the ideal). I live in Berlin but I love Paris and want to move there, maybe I will be able to do that in 10 years when I save enough money (usually never happens of course). The gap from here to there is time. What's in between this conflict is effort, sorrow, fear, choice, control, expectation, etc. Another name for that is I, me, my will, my self, the ego.

So time is the ideal vs that what is. And time can also be something we call spiritual, something we strive for, make effort for, try to control like the idea of "God", "Yoga", "Unitary Perception", "Meditation". We want to reach the ideal, which is our own projection, so again it's in the domain of the self, it's actually pretty silly :) It's like the dog chasing its own tail.

Zen, the unitary movement of the Universe, UP, Yoga, the Void, etc. cannot be controlled, it is flowing or not. When we try to control it, we disrupt the flow and disperse energy in futility, no? So when hypnosis by thought happens do we have a choice? No. It just happens, perhaps because we work a lot, thought has a lot to think about, a lot of purposes, expectations, a lot to analyse, which is the hypnosis by the META Process of thought.

When we wake up from the hypnosis (the Second Awakening), it happens spontaneously too, it's not something that "I've done.", it's just how the Universe works, without any control. It's one Flow, one unitary movement, without a problem, if we/thought does not make problem out of it.