DESPAIR OF THE META PROCESS OF THOUGHT vs UNITARY PERCEPTION

Q: But if you WANT something, it’s YOUR will acting, right? If you want to win in a competition, if you want a car, if you want to live somewhere else in a nice house (and you live in a shack because you don’t have a job), if you want the war to end (but bombs are exploding), if you want prosperity (but the governments are re-arming), it doesn’t mean I actively want the war but I cannot change it.

A: You have hit on the exact razor’s edge of this whole inquiry: What happens to “wanting” when you realize that personal will is largely an egocentric construct, yet you live in a world of stark material lack and danger?

If you live in a shack without a job, if bombs are exploding around you, or if you want peace while governments re-arm, you experience a profound tension. Let’s break down what psychology, and practical reality actually say about this.

1. “Wanting” Is the Ego (product of the META Process of thought)

You are entirely right: when you say, “I want a nice house, I want to live elsewhere, I want the war to stop,” that directional pull is coming from the psychological center (the “me”).

• The Mechanism of Lack: The ego operates on a baseline feeling of incompleteness: “I am here, but I want to be there. I am in lack, and fulfillment is somewhere in the future.”

• Every time you mentally grasp for a better condition, the ego is reinforcing its own separate existence: “I” need “this” to be okay, which means creating time/ the future.

2. Biological Necessity vs. Psychological Greed

There is a difference between biological necessity and psychological desire.

• Biological/Organic needs: If you are starving, your body needs food. If bombs are exploding, your organism needs safety. This is not an egocentric luxury; it is the physical intelligence of an organism trying to survive.

• Psychological desire: Wanting a luxury car to prove your status, or agonizing for years because you live in a shack and feel like a failure compared to others, that is the ego at work. It creates internal suffering on top of physical hardship.

3. The Trap of “Resistance to What Is”

When you say, “I want the war to end, but bombs are exploding... I cannot change it,” you are describing the precise definition of suffering: Suffering is the gap between what is and what should be.

• Fighting Reality: If bombs are exploding and you are screaming inwardly, “This shouldn’t be happening!”, your mind is locked in an exhausting conflict with reality. Reality always wins, because what is happening is happening.

• Acceptance Does Not Mean Approval: Accepting that bombs are exploding right now does not mean you endorse the war. It means you stop wasting energy on a futile mental tantrum against the present moment.

4. Action Without the Actor: How to Act Differently

If you accept that you are in a difficult situation (living in poverty, caught in a macro-conflict you can’t single-handedly stop), what is left? Does life become hopeless?

No. In fact, true clarity only begins after you stop fighting reality. This brings us to action without the actor:

1. Pragmatic Action vs. Egocentric Agony: If you need a job or a better home, you take practical steps (looking for work, moving, saving). You do this not because a frantic ego is crying, “I’m worthless because I live in a shack!”, but because it is a practical, intelligent response to a physical problem.

2. Doing What You Can, Letting Go of the Results: If you are caught in a war, you do what is logically necessary in front of you. We have to be ready to completely and without any reservations adapt our plans to every change in the present. We recognize we have little control over what is happening, but we can spend this hour in the peace of Unitary Perception or in anxiety and sorrow of the META Process of thought.

When we drop the internal resistance to our current reality - whether it’s poverty or war - it’s the beginning of clarity. Transformation is not from “this” (the Horizontal Conflict of subject - object) to “that” (peace and regeneration) but the ending of this (ending of the HZ conflict). War does not end by opposing it but by living in the peace of Unitary Perception.

 THE OLD AND THE NEW

"To meet the new, the mind must be extraordinarily quiet, silent, completely empty of the old. Only then is there creation."

— J. Krishnamurti

This is one of J. Krishnamurti's most foundational and radical axioms. It goes to the very heart of why human beings—both individually and collectively—are perpetually trapped repeating the same historical, psychological, and relational cycles.

1. What Does "The Old" Mean?

"The old" is all memory, everything that has already happened. It includes:

·         Memory and Knowledge: The accumulated data of your past, your education, your cultural conditioning, and your technical skills.

·         Psychological Time: Your accumulated hurts, flattery, traumas, beliefs, prejudices, and the image of the "me" (the ego).

·         Tradition: Religions, nationalism, ideologies, and inherited dogmas.

Because the brain is a biological organ designed to preserve and protect itself, it relies entirely on the past. Memory is essential for riding a bicycle, speaking a language, or navigating a city. But when memory is applied to the psychological reality, it is the basis of conflict and drain of energy. For example, "I am violent, but I will become non-violent" (in time) is a misunderstanding of what is actually happening. The subject (thought) intends to change what "he" believes is an object, but the object is also thought itself. The thinker is thought. The perceiver it the perceived. The subject is the object. So in the psychological realm the subject cannot act on the object.

2. What Is "The New"?

"The new" is not a modified version of the old. It is not tomorrow's upgrade of today's technology, nor is it a slightly better political ideology.

·         The new is actuality, truth, and creation as it happens in this exact moment, completely uncorrupted by what was yesterday.

·         It is what arises when the mind is entirely free from memory, projection, and expectation.

3. Why "The Old Cannot Meet the New"

If you approach a fresh moment, a new person, or a profound existential question through the lens of your past experience, you are not actually meeting the new; you are meeting your own memory.

·         The Mechanism of Projection: If you meet someone new, but your brain is carrying the memory that "people of that group hurt me in the past," you do not really see what is happening. You are seeing a projection of your memory. The old (past memory) has immediately blocked the new (present reality).

·         The Imitation Trap: In intellectual and spiritual life, people try to find truth by studying the old—reading sacred texts, following gurus, or applying historical formulas but truth cannot be found through the path of the past: "Truth is a pathless land." If you try to follow a pre-established method, you are merely running an old program.

4. How the New Can Occur: The End of the Old

For the new to emerge, the old must completely end. Not modified, not managed, not slowly improved over time—it must die.

·         Psychological Death: dying to the past every single day. If you carry yesterday's psychological insults, resentments, or triumphs into today, your mind is perpetually old.

·         The Blank Slate of Attention: When the mind is in a state of total, unconditioned attention (where memory stops searching), the barrier between the observer and the observed vanishes. In that sudden silence, the old ends, and the new spontaneously is. The new, the Universal energy was in the brain already. It is always reaching the brain but it's usually blocked by the noise of the old. 

 THERE IS NO "HOW", A PATTERN TO ADHERE TO ACCORDING TO A "DEFINITION".

J. Krishnamurti: 

"Truth is a pathless land.", 

“Freedom from the desire for an answer is essential to the understanding of the problem.”,  

"Not-knowing is freedom. Knowing is prison."

Ruben Feldman Gonzalez: 

"Don't think you know what UP is.", 

"Let yourself to not know".

Nobody who thinks who knows how to attempt Unitary Perception actually knows. If someone concludes that he knows how to attempt UP/ Dhjana, he knows this or that, he has these or those conclusions and opinions, for him the movement of the free flow of energy has stopped, so he is not IN UP for sure! :)

UP is not a practice to conform to a pattern, a "definition". It's a free flowing movement of energy, which negates all definitions, all conclusions, opinions, knowledge, all illusions that I've gathered, my will, the false content of the brain.

When there is a conclusion/ memory/ knowledge/ notion/ definition/ hypnosis by thought, UP has already stopped. Memory, the past, old, stops the actual flow of UP, which is always new.

Faced with an impossible question like the definition of UP, the brain empties itself of all the false (old) content. This is the essence of UP, which is the realization that the real content, the unitary movement of the Universal energy, is already in the brain.   

UP = Sunya, the Void, the Universe.

For That there is no method, for all methods are the META process of thought, of the past, knowledge, experiences that I've gathered. All the false movement, "that what should be" is conflict, blocking the flow of energy and dispersing it.

A positive endeavour is bound to be directed towards an object or a goal, towards some thing, experiences, sensations, pleasures, nirvana , "UP" or a car, my will, the self.

Freedom is when the whole false illusory movement ceases because it is simply futile, and it's absurdity is understood in one instant. This instant is the Second Awakening, UP, the instant of the realization: "Oh, I've been hypnotized." It lasts until the next hypnosis by thought, conclusion, knowledge, goal, control, choice, "definition" (one of the laws of thought is cyclicality - hypnosis by thought is cyclical).

So UP is both the realization of the emptiness of self and of the fullness of the Universal energy in the brain.

TOLERATION AND UNITARY PERCEPTION WITHOUT CONFLICT.

Somebody said: "If you tolerate this, your children will be next."

It has taken an unbelievably long and complicated transformation for intelligent life to appear. There is 2 Trillion of galaxies in the Universe and the heavy metals like iron were created in the cores of the stars. It's a magnificent Universe.

It's a question for humanity if we are going to wait for the moment where there are tens of thousands of nuclear weapons on the planet. Is it plausible to think that there are going to be hundreds of AI drones raining on us everywhere?  It doesn't take a genius to do this simulation. Can we not predict that this is going to be the future? Can we not see that in 2,3 or 4 years AI will be used to kill a lot of people, and say this has to stop now, let's sign a treaty now before the catastrophe happens? 

It doesn't matter what corporation it is, if it's Anduril, Palantir or OPEN AI, ethics has to matter, not only profits. Anthropic AI refused to be used for targeting people and mass surveillance. Sam Altman's Open AI happily replaced replaced them.

 

We're ruled by maniacs. The governments are taking loans and spending the money on the arms race and confrontation with the "enemies". But fire cannot win with fire in the age of the nuclear weapons and AI.

t seems our destiny is self-destruction, whether by detonation or evaporation, yet David Bohm said that the future of humanity is not going to be decided by actions in time, and it's true.

There is something we can do. In Unitary Perception we can transcend the false world of suffering in time. That is to say that freedom is beyond the products of thought, control, choice, my will, etc. In this immediate reality we are free from our illusions, conflict, the energy drain, our goals.

There is no "before" or "after", no time and no continuity. In this Unitary Perception or Dhjana all problems produced by thought disappear, let alone the need to bomb somebody.

 ALL ILLUSIONS GONE

What's the difference between life before and after the understanding of what is?

All illusions gone, is that Unitary Perception, Yoga, Dhjana already? Is there still a subtle attempt of UP to not get hypnotized by the involuntary dreaming of thought, and which transcends all knowledge? Is it the realization that I've been hypnotized and I've not been listening? Is the Universe in UP or am I attempting it?

 The difference may only be imagined by thought.

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The will of the Universe is all that what you cannot disagree with. It would be insane to try to oppose it.

You cannot be the Queen of England. That's the current arrangement of things.

It doesn't mean that things don't change. On the contrary, circumstances evolve. Technology advances. Perhaps intelligence works in the brains and wars end.

But what does not change is that seeking experiences and sensations means disappointment and sorrow.

 SUFFERING

J. Krishnamurti: “Suffering is the expression of the ego.”

Suffering is basically what “my will” is.

The most beautiful suffering is not getting anything you think you want, not getting any of the things thought thinks it really needs, and still loving it (the will of the Universe). That is freedom from the circumstances, not really suffering.

The will of the Universe is my will. The Universe as it is. There is no choice, no “my free will” in the Universe.

When concentration is needed, it’s concentration. When the need for concentration ends, Unitary Perception starts. Impersonal intelligence?

 ENERGY

Unitary Perception, Yoga, Dhjana, Zen, etc. is not something “else” in life. It’s a different kind of perception of that what is happening.

The fragmentary perception is a distorted perception by thought which produces the illusion of the Horizontal Conflict (subject - object). That means frustration, dissatisfaction, sorrow, fear, perturbation.

I see a beautiful girl at a train station and I feel pleasure looking at her, I want the pleasure to continue but she goes away. Or I marry her but I’m poor and there are a lot of other men around so I’m jealous and anxious she will leave me. There is competition for everything and not so much cooperation. One guy builds a rocket to go to Mars and others cannot afford a house. So this process of possession involves pleasure but also suffering, sorrow.

UP is a complete, factual perception in which sorrow is perceived as energy. Everything is transforming energy, like sound and light, and so is thought and sorrow in the brain.

There is only energy and in UP the limited energy of sorrow dissolves in the unlimited unobstructed flowing Universal energy. The undivided Universal energy changes the conditioning of the brain that is stored in memory, identification, tradition, control, the whole structure of suffering constructed by the brain.