SEAMLESS UP

What if you can't "sustain" UP/Yoha/Dhjana because you want to sustain "it", so you're trying to sustain it - some imaginary ideal state, according to some definition, some pattern you hold?

Is the false movement the problem, the blockage, the noise?

You want to gain Freedom, another goal, another trophy, another some thing more. And apparently it cannot be gained, perhaps it doesn't need to be gained for it's never lost?

The fact is that Reality, the Universe cannot be lost, there is only the Universe and nothing separate from It. All problems with UP are imaginary (in thought) only. So let it go. Let the chips fall where they may, for you don't control anything, so don't try to control anything. Don't try to choose, for you don't even exist.

 IN THE WORLD OF MONKS

I am not "Arek", come on.. :) Certainly not the Arek from the secondary school :) I am not. I do not exist. There is no "me". "Arek" is a false illusory imaginary product of thought (although sometimes functional in the society).

Some pray "Oh please my Lord, tell me what to do. Manage my life. I'm sure it will work out for the best" :) That is a fictional duality produced by thought. Who do you pray to?

But if we say that in Reality there is no duality, no "me" that can say: "I am the Universe", therefore this identification (and all identification) is a mistake. 

The one unitary movement of the Universe has nothing to do with any identification with it.

Only the Universe Itself could say: "I AM", but it doesn't say. Who says that is not (one with) the Universe (anymore).

REALITY 

If you blindly follow anyone, you will fall in a hole. There are no gurus and no one is infallible. Even Einstein was wrong many times. Being mistaken is not bad, it's bad to just accept and believe anything without doubting and investigating from the ground up, which means learning.

For reality to be reflected in the human brain, all knowledge, all symbol, pattern, every object and every goal has to be let go/transcended.

THE PERSISTENT ILLUSION 

The only "decision" thought/ the "me"/ the self can make regarding UP/Yoga/Dhjana/Zazen which it does not know, cannot "know", and will never "know" (thought can "know" only a description, a definition, words and symbols), is not to even be silent (which thought cannot decide upon obviously) but to not re-act, let go, suspend doing anything at all, and suspend language. THAT means an all-inclusive observation and silence. But it's not that the self that starts it (its supposed "last decision to start UP"). 

If UP should not be just more of the thought-hypnosis, the observation naturally MUST be all-inclusive and unbroken, flowing. There cannot be any sense of a division in it (the horizontal conflict of subject-object), no sense of control, expectation or effort, which is all again the "self", produced by thought.

So yes, the observation IS indeed "all" inclusive (as one unitary movement) but it's NOT more effort, expectation and it's not another (positive) goal that is set by thought to pursue.

UP is not a "leap" (a positive action), it's a negation of the whole mechanism of thought.

The "me" cannot "leap" anywhere, including to UP because there is no "me", it's an illusory product of thought. 

Nothing per se is "started" or "leaped to". The Universe is always already here, no need to make any jumps! Where would be the jumping to? That what is is all there is. David Bohm said, quite correctly that "all that can be is what is". Nothing is separated from It.

This need to pursue a goal (what is - the Reality vs "what should be" - an ideal) is a persistent illusion/hypnosis/conflict produced by thought - the Horizontal Conflict, time and the "self".

So what really happens is that in the Simplicity, the One unitary Reality, thought produces the persistent ILLUSION of separation and the need to "do something" to "return to reality", which means a pursuit of just another goal, the horizontal conflict, hypnosis and the "self" with its fragmentary perception.

 NOT KNOWING

Can UP/Dhjana/Channa/Samandhi/Yoga, etc. be positively initiated as a positive movement (with effort) or every positive movement is a pursuit of a goal (in time, with the horizontal conflict), so concentration, a perception directed towards some object, so re-action (based on knowledge/thought) and concentration?

Can then UP be a different kind of action, a negative discipline, the negation of that what is false. Not pursuing any goal with expectation, not controlling anything, not concentrating, not knowing, not re-acting according to any pattern or definition?

When that what is false is negated (by intelligent observation and thorough understanding), the real movement is that's what is left here. 

 THE FALSE MOVEMENT

The false movement of thought of self-aggrandizement (seeking power, prestige, profit) must be thoroughly understood. The other side of it is of course fear and sorrow. Suffering is the expression of the self.

This false imaginary illusory movement is in "time" (horizontal), gathering things that are supposed to bring "me" safety, pleasure and comfort. But what's more important, it brings anxiety, fear and sorrow.

Pleasure (desire, preferences) = fear and sorrow, they're like two sides of the same coin.

No control and wanting nothing is that what is, the true movement of Reality and the only liberation from the persistent illusion produced by thought, called the horizontal conflict (subject - object) and the self.

Not wanting anything includes "God", "zen", "yoga", "Unitary Perception", etc. and it means a close observation of the whole false movement of thought, that persistent illusion coming and going, trying to produce unnecessary tasks and goals, attempting hypnosis. It means letting things flow without controlling anything, letting go everything that is so called "my will".

The pure negative observation of UP neutralizes the false movement, the memories trying to create the false continuity, desires, etc.),

The brain is a product of the unitary movement of Reality, it is one with the movement.

The movement is at the same time in the brain and the movement creates the brain. UP = The Universe.

 DOING NOTHING

UP is being done but it's not done by "me". Can it then be started, initiated or ended? Perhaps something can be started (striving towards a goal, completing a task) or ended only by the me, the self, which means the Horizontal Conflict (the me vs not me, subject and object).

In UP I do nothing. There is no Horizontal Conflict and no "me"/the experiencer/controller in UP.

UP is done by the universal energy, the energy of the universe penetrating the brain. The Universe is in UP. UP = the Universe.

If UP ends, it means hypnosis by the movement of thought and the illusion of the Horizontal Conflict. But the universal energy is always in the brain, reaching the posterior brain, if we make noise with our goals, desires and fears and are separated from It or put out house in order and are one with its Silence.