Ruben Feldman Gonzalez:

[...]So, well, I'm in an hotel in Chile giving a seminar, I was already married to Cecilia, I was alone in the hotel and good-ol' sexual desire appears. It came with intensity. Then I remembered Krishnamurti. Do not express, do not repress, do not express, and do not repress. Do not express. "Do not express" means I can't call a prostitute, I can't masturbate, I can't express it, "do not express it." Now, "do not repress it." So, what do I do? I don't express it, I don't repress it. I don't express it, very well.

Now, how do I do not to repress it? Unitary Perception: sound, weight, visual field, and I see the desire, I see the desire, I see the desire. Intense. Sound. I forgot sound, again: sound, weight, there were dogs barking in Santiago, "Arf, arf, arf," and I was seeing desire. Sound, weight, visual field, desire, "arf, arf, arf (dogs in Santiago), arf, arf."

That's all I remember. I fell asleep and the next morning I felt I'd go flying through the hotel window if I jumped (laughter). That is, I had such a big energy. Nowadays sometimes Cecilia tells me she sees me with energy, and it's true, there's an energy that is very big, and one says, where does this energy come from? It comes from seeing desire, not only sexual desire, for example, the desire for going down to talk to Perlita, my favorite dog (I have five little dogs). I want to go down to talk to Perlita. "No, I'm not going to express it and I'm not going to repress it." I stay still. I don't talk to the little dog. Every desire, to look at it that way, without expressing it and without repressing it. Then, what happens to one's body? Stillness. You see? There's an incredible stillness of the body.

I never thought I could get to be so still as I'm now in the last year. A stillness that -I hope this is not seen by my cardiologist, who's a great cardiologist, because he tells me, "You have to walk one hour every day," and I'm completely still, seeing, seeing, seeing, and, what happens? I go to bed and I wake up with such an energy at five o'clock in the morning, I approach emails, at eight o'clock I finished a part, the work I do in the computer comes in many parts, because I'm also in translation, grading assignments in DPI (now ICHP), and so on. I feel a tremendous energy, an energy that makes you feel you're going to fly without moving your arms. That's the ecstasy of Unitary Perception, it's the ecstasy of energy, which I wouldn't change for anything. I think what my doctor would say is this, "If you keep living that way (sometimes he calls me "Santa Claus"), if you keep living that way, Santa, you'll end up dead, because you aren't doing the minimum exercise." What I answer to him is, "I want this stillness, I love this stillness, this stillness of Unitary Perception, which is pure Unitary Perception, pure energy, it's the ecstasy of existence, I wouldn't change it for anything, I wouldn't change it for anything. [...]"

CLASS ONE - Sunday Presential Course-II

July, 25th 2010, CPH Mexicali, Mexicali, Baja California